On Getting Famous...

Haha well going onto YouTube and getting a few hits is hardly being famous, but I've been thinking of giving it a go. The only thing is, what's so different that people would want to regularly come back to watch my videos.

You watch other people all the time and think, hey, I could do that. But you go and learn about them and realise, that their vlog is based on their regular stand-up comedy, or that they've been doing this for years and their earlier videos are probably at a better standard that what you could do.

Maybe I could make it a group project, I would like to not put my uni work up there, in case a company liked it and wanted it. Techniqually putting it on YouTube means it's already been distributed...doesn't it?

On Counsilling...

After a little understanding I returned to my counciller a few days ago. It was very helpful, she simply joined a few dots for me without blaming my parents for everything that's going wrong with me...

It got quite emotional, but I left feeling good. I've been ordered to do something nice for myself which no-one else benefits from...may be going underwear shopping this week. Time for a pair that matches yes?!

Hehe, anyway...Getting into the new semster now, steady work flow coming in which is good, getting tired of this lazy butt sitting staring at YouTube and such all day!

On Birthdays...

Today is the party for my friends birthday...I'm all dressed up. And I feel quite good, it's a steampunk outfit that I adore. I love steampunk yes!

Also, I have decided to pick a career choice and stick to it.
I was thinking about Comic Book Writer and Tattooist, well why not try for both!! When I leave university, I intend to be poor just a little bit longer and aim to grab an apprenticeship in a tattoo parlour...Expansion of portfolio is needed...

Right now I am also enjoying floating around the dating sites. It's just a bit of fun getting to know new people, it's too early to be looking for anything serious! There are some very nice and mad people, had a few giggles with some comic fans...mostly about spiderman and how no-one talks about webspinning from his behind...I mean, that's where real spiders webs comes from!

Anyway, half an hour until all our friends are here. One last sweep of the house and I'm going out for a good time, enjoy your weekends all :P

On Relationships...

What a waste of time...Yes your right, it's just the sound of the newly single.

Although, I thought I would have a hard time accepting it...certain circumstances following the break-up have allowed me to be more if not completely confident with my decision...and that makes me feel both happy and sad.

Happy, because I know I did the right thing for myself

Sad, because I knew this is the kind of person I had put myself beside

I'm hoping this person understands soon that if they don't change they're going to lose people forever, but I doubt that, I've never known this person to genuinely blame themselves for anything that goes wrong with their life...it's always other people that seem to have screwed them over, nothing ever connects to their own behaviour...well, there was this one time yesturday. But it was still a cry for attention, or for a response...some sympathy maybe...so I don't really count it.

Ah, look at me babble about silly teenage boys...I'm so jealous of my mothers generation, the last lot of decent men! I hope I don't have to wait as long as she did to find my Mr. Right...let's face it, it took her 40 years...

The thing is, people tell you, "you're a beautiful girl, you'll find a new man easy!" - yes, but that's not my problem, the men...well boys, are all unrespectful dolts who don't deserve the girl they get...I'm not saying there are no nightmare girlfriends...because my god there definitely are! But there are far too many of both sex that play about "Hey, I'm only so old, I don't want to be tied down!" So it's a short term relationship...maybe it'll only last six months...I'd still demand respect.

On Selling Work...

I keep thinking about ways to get money faster so I can afford a BJD.

My suggested I start selling some of my artwork on Ebay, I didn't think that was a bad idea at all. I was looking around Ebay to try and find if others where selling off their own art, but all I found was big canvas prints of anime stills and two pretty bad manga drawings...either a oportunity to sell what others don't...or it is a failed attempt by others...well, there's only one way to find out.

So yes, as soon as this film project is over, I will be drawing a few pieces and putting them up for sale as a test run. I hope it works, it would be lovely to see people that liked my art enough to want to buy it =3

On BJD Dolls...

I have been looking at these beautiful, fully customisable dolls for a little while now. I had to stop looking while doing my work, work costs money...

But I have been looking more closely at them again and have found my perfect first BJD doll. She is a Dikadoll, Kid, Blanca ver.2. She is absolutely adorable. She costs around about £200 with everything, but I am going to look for a wig and outfit elsewhere, so with just a face-up she is £168.

I have had the name Claves (pro. "Clar-vaise") in my head for a while and seeing this dolls faces fitted that name perfectly as well. So begins my saving up for her...I'm trying to not be too rash with my student grant, we all get excited when our grants come in and heavy amounts of shopping ensues.

So I'm trying to be reasonable, but what I have come across with a lot of BJD fans and video makers on the youtubes, is that if you want it, you go ahead and buy it, regardless of financial implications...My reasonableness won't last long...Blanca Ver.2 has made a huge impact on me.

My friend is planning on purchasing the Rena doll, with face-up and pink wig, she doesn't like the dress for it. This will be her second BJD, her first is a doll love Leon, it hasn't been shipped yet, she is completely in love with him and has already planned her second doll. I only understood her love for Leon and BJD fans love for their dolls when I saw the perfect doll for me...

On Meeting New People...

Hello All, today I decided to meet some new people and make some friends - on the internet.

I decided to join oasis.com and show my face. I had a good time, it is firstly a dating site. I was there as it had a friendship selection and instant messaging, which I think is a lot more effective at talking and getting to know someone in a short space of time than just e-mail or personal messages.

But it's time to call it a day :3

Have a lot to do tomorrow, need to get some more food in as well as sorting this animation out...